As a human we all face many objects or obstacles that can become a fear. We must try to over come these fears in order to be sane. Some fears can revolve around our everyday life. I fear myself failing everyday. I wake up and realize that I have such a long day ahead of me. I just want to give up and make nothing out of myself. That is always in a moment thing. I know I want to succeed and go very far in life but there is always that small negativity in myself that with all this work it will wear off and I will fail. Failure is not joke, once you fail where do you go? How does someone pick up where they left off. I have failed at many things but currently my life is on the line and being made, failing would be the tear down of world. Right now at Bunkerhill everything seems to be very easy but once I get myself into a tougher college it'll be even tougher on me. Nothing will come easy, the fear of failing will overcome itself by proving to myself that I will be able to get through all of the bumps in this bumpy road.
My biggest fear is a a silly fear that I believe I will never be able to get over. Im almost 20 years old and I cannot step foot into a science museum. Ever since kindergarten it became something I feared the most. What scares me is all the realistic animals and creatures staring at you. I have gone twice in my 20 years of life and those two times have been the worst days of my life. For my eighth grade trip we took a trip to this museum and I had forgotten how much I hated this place. The minute my friends wanted to go check out the dinosaurs I ran away crying and filled with anxiety. For the rest of that trip I stayed in the food court eating all alone. I think back to it and I absolutely hate the thought about it, I cannot imagine myself enjoying another trip there or being able to relax and observe whats great about it. My boyfriend finds it ridiculous that I'm this scared of walking into a place where it is all fake. Its all in my head to why I'm this scared but I just know in myself that I cannot go in there again. The worst part about all of this is that I want to become a first grade teacher and becoming a teacher means that I would have to take them and when that day comes, oh boy will I not be ready! 
Losing someone so important to me is the biggest fear I have to live with for the rest of my life. I am extremely close to my grandparents that losing either one of them will be the end of me. No one has any idea of how much I would give totem. I have lose a few family members that I have loved very much but the love does not amount to the love I have for my grandparents. Death is something you cannot get back, once it happens there is no way on going back. Not being able to fix what had happened or to be able to help out the situation will eat me alive. I have always told my grandmother that when she passes away, I'm going with her whether she likes it or not. Imagining a world without the person who has been there for your whole life is devastating to process in your head. At times these thoughts take out the best in me, just imagining myself alone with other the ones I love makes me fear it even more. We can't kill the thought of our fears or how we will overcome anythjng in our path. With strength and positivity anything can get done whether it can be fixed or not.
Fear me not
Fear revolves all around us
How must we not fuss !
Overcoming such negativity
When all we need is more positivity.
When failure happens
It is there to stay
Everything stands in the way.
No more paying attention to making it better
What does it even matter?
A dinosaur here and fossils there
So many creatures
GET ME OUT OF HERE !
A love so profound
Why must you leave this bound.
When you part, I will be in pieces.
How to pick up when your gone?
Take me with you, for I am done!
A never ending fear
Always so near
Face it and you will become an extraordinaire.
Nicole,
ReplyDeleteGood post for this week. Very interesting fears... science museums... I haven't heard of that one yet, but it makes sense. And maybe that fear is tied somehow to your fear of death (?) Dinosaurs are dead. Their skeletons represent that.
As for the fear of death of your grandparents, I say two things: make sure you feel like you've spent some good time with them or some great moments. Relish that time with them. I used to have a similar fear, but when my aunt passed away, I didn't feel distant with that, I actually felt that she was closer to me (in spirit). I could feel her presence and can still tap into that when I want to. Maybe death is not the end (of the spirit).
Good post. Your rhyming poem is good, but it is more of a poem than a rap battle against your fears. You could battle Death in this instance, for example, and directly address Death. Here, you have a well-structured poem that holds to a good rhyme scheme, but I'd like to see more of the edgy, pushy, "don't push me around" attitude of a hip hop song.
Overall, this is good work. Try to stick to the directions as closely as possible. I admire that you're keeping up each week and still providing great work.
GR: 88